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| 05:52pm 15/06/2004 |
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it's about time.
jason.
june fifteenth, two thousand and four.
<3
in a couple of minutes i'm off to macaroni grill and to see saved! with the girls. shan, meghan, lindsey, lindsey's friend, and maybe katie? probably not...since she has stupid finals. but she graduates friday!! woohoo!
see you later. |
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| 03:36pm 10/06/2004 |
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i finally got my car back.
now i can escape whenever i please.
i've been hanging out with jason more. it's comforting that i can hang out with him and his friends. it's never a dull time. every one of his friends has a gigantic house. i'm jealous. i want my house back, damnit. :/
i want everything to fall into place. |
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| 01:26am 07/06/2004 |
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hung out with jason last night. went to his friend's house for a barbeque. drank a good amount of beer and fell asleep next to him. boy, have i missed that kid. good times. i need to make it a point to hang out with him more often. i'm always happy when i'm around him. and that's something i need to be.
my friends and i want to see phantom planet on july 12th at irving plaza. that better happen. but who knows. it's hard for any of us to actually make damn plans.
i've been making more and more bags. made one for shan and meghan. bought more fabric and even found a bunch of my mom's fabric that i'm going to use. woohoo. i'm glad i've found something that i love to do that keeps me occupied for hours on end. maybe i should start making them to sell. ooh, that'd be great.
friday my friends and i are going to have a little get together of our own at meghan's. saturday will be the party. this weekend is going to eat all of my money up, but it'll be worth it. it's always nice when parents go away. who needs them anyway?
watched 'pieces of april' tonight. good movie. kind of sad. maybe you should watch it. it gave me the craving for a thanksgiving dinner. i should make that dinner for all of my friends. haha, that'd be funny. BUT REAL DELICIOUS. |
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| 01:11am 02/06/2004 |
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i got a job, i got a job, i got a job. hey, hey, hey, hey.
at 'lettuce inn' (a healthy retreat). hah. sells sandwiches, soups, and salads. this is a chance for me to eat healthy AND make money. woohoo. and another plus is that the place is owned by my mom's friend, a young woman who acts like she is still a teenager. she's great. other people i know will also be working there. INCLUDING my sister. hah, but that's okay. i'm so glad i got this job, it's perfect. for me.
brought my car in today. finally. it looks like it is going to be a lot of money. ugh. :/ oh well. i better get my car back real soon. i hate dealing with pontiac, they fucking suck at life.
not much else. anticipating the annual party at meghan's: june 12th. and apparently i'm going to the shore with my dad for a weekend sometime this summer. along with my brother and sister. somehow i think that it'll be torture. bleh.
that's all.
goodnight. |
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| 02:33am 23/05/2004 |
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first job: kohl's. i wanted to die.
first screen name: i do not recall.
first self-purchased album: who knows.
first pets: my cat, sammy. :/
first big trip: cancun, mexico.
last big car ride: upstate, new years.
last real kiss: last week...is there a fake kiss?
last good cry: sometime last week.
last movie seen: big fish, last night.
last movie seen in a theater: eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. fantastic. go see it.
last beverage drank: water.
last food consumed: icecream cake at shan's.
last phone call: shan.
last TV show watched: SNL.
last shoes worn: cons, but not those cons.
last CD played: mix of cursive, le tigre, phantom planet, and others.
last item bought: food.
last cigarette: at monmouth.
last book read: some book that i found in a box and i can't remember the name of it.
last time showered: this afternoon.
last words spoken: "oh, look who it is."
last sleep: this morning.
last IM: jason.
last time dancing: FAKE OR REAL?! oooh. i couldn't even tell you.
met up with sean. he's damn cute. and very funny, too. went to tower records, bottle king, and wendy's. i enjoyed my day out. later on at night i WALKED to shan's house. haha. it took 35 minutes. it was a much needed walk though. good exercise. i think my friends and i might be seeing shrek2. hah. we're crazy kids. and that is all.
it's time for sleeping in that thing they call a bed.
goodnight. |
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| 02:20am 22/05/2004 |
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i was out in the sun yesterday with shan and katie for 3 hours. swam and layed out in the sun in shan's backyard. good times. until i found out that i was burnt today. and now it itches like hell.
but on to other things...
there's this boy. and i think he's real cute. but that's all i have to say.
watched big fish with some friends tonight. i liked it. very much so.
i hope i get the job at lettuce inn. seems like it be a pretty fun job. i shall know by wednesday.
it's been phone tag with my insurance company about my car. i need my fucking car right now. i feel bad that my friends always have to go out of their way to pick me up. and i like to use it for other things, too. once the car is fixed i'm thinking about selling it and buying the car that i have always wanted. a jetta. i need a smaller car with FOUR DOORS, thank you.
ouch. i'm so itchy. it's unbearable.
i suck at life.
see you later. |
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| 07:35pm 17/05/2004 |
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mood: alright. music: bjork. (dancer in the dark)
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dancer in the dark is a good movie.
it may be strange to some, but i enjoyed it.
i like having everyone home. shan still isn't home for good yet, but she will be in a couple of days. meghan will be having her annual party on june 12th. can't wait for that. i don't know. i'm just happy that all of my friends are around now.
oh man, did i black out the other night. i drank way too much. i hate hearing things that i don't remember. i made a fool out of myself, really. even though it sounded funny, it sucks to not know what anyone is talking about. the new meds increase the effect it gives me. i need to watch myself. i'm sticking to beer from now on.
i've got an interview tomorrow morning at a chiropractic office. then i'm applying to a soup/sandwich shop that my mom's friend is opening up in ramsey. just can't wait around for treasure island. i need money desperately.
katie reminded me that i have always wanted to make a bag. so, katie and i went to a fabric store the other day and got some fabric to do so. i have made three bags already. it's fun. and they actually came out pretty well. it'd be cool to make them and sell them. oh yes, it would be.
tonight meghan is coming over to watch a movie we rented earlier. it's called 'elephant'. hope it's good.
well, that is that.
see you later. |
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| 04:22pm 16/05/2004 |
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1. Allie and I are _______.
2. Allie is _________.
3. Allie isn't ________.
4. Allie makes me feel ________.
5. Allie is ________.
6. If I could change one thing about Allie, I would ________.
7. Allie should ________.
8. If Allie were a color, she would be ________.
9. If Allie were an animal, she would be ________.
10.If Allie were a candy she would be_______.
11.If Allie were a song, she would be ________.
12.I dislike it when Allie ________.
13.If I could be with Allie right now, I would ________.
14.If I could give Allie one thing, it would be ________.
15.Sometimes, when I think of Allie, I ________.
please, do it. :) |
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| 10:23pm 11/05/2004 |
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my sister: "do you have a new screenname or something?"
me: "yeah."
my sister: "well, what is it?"
me: "ilovepoop."
my sister: "you love poop?"
me: "uh huh. that's what it is."
my sister: "no, really. what is it?"
lucky me. i had a fantastic day, let me tell you.
first, i almost fainted earlier in the day. i had just gotten out of the shower and all of a sudden i couldn't stand up anymore. got that lightheaded/flushed feeling mixed with the nausea. i've fainted before, so i knew that's what it was. god, i hate that feeling. i had to sit down on the bathroom floor for 10 minutes before i could even get up. apparently i haven't been eating so well or not enough. bullllshit. anyway, that was a nice way to start off my day.
second, i go to treasure island and i find my manager. i talked to her only to find out that they don't need me back yet. whaaaat. i can't find a job anywhere around here, i actually WANT to go back there. that didn't lift my spirits up any. third, i am about to put oil into my engine when it decides to spill a little AND CAUSE A FUCKING FIRE. oh yeah, that was fun. my mom actually called 911. it was a big fiasco because we couldn't get the fire out, but eventually we did. and now my engine and some wires are somewhat melted. can't drive my car now and won't be able to until it's fixed. OH, i forgot...i went to get my cds out, but i can't because the wires got all fucked up and they are now stuck. while trying to get them out i broke the cover that protects it in the trunk. i have such great luck. no really, i do. tomorrow i have to call my insurance company and get everything resolved. this just makes me feel like even more crap.
aside from that i don't know what else to mention. so, goodbye.
now it's time for me to laugh at myself...
hahahahahaha, allie. you are so fucking stupid. hahahahaha. yeah. |
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| 09:19pm 10/05/2004 |
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don't really have much to say. the manager that i need to talk to is sick. just my luck. i'm going in tomorrow to see if she's there. i hope to god that she wasn't lying when she said she'd take me back. even though i hate working, i really need to.
it looks like i'm going to community college. it's better than nothing. but jesus, i'm so sick of school. it's so unnecessary.
can't wait for everyone to be home for the summer. we are going to go on little trips and make this a great summer. i'd really like to go to canada...
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| 06:53pm 05/05/2004 |
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woke up today around 10:30am and showered. then kate and i went to get cash for our books. i made $58.50. sweet. i know it's not a lot, but it's something. afterwards we went for my last meal at the dining hall. shitty food, yes, but it was sad nonetheless to be having my last meal today at the DH. went back to the dorm and had to pack the rest of my stuff into the car. kate helped me with that and then she came with me to turn in my keys. said goodbye to elmwood and left.
the feeling that rushed over me just before i got into my car to leave was so depressing. i'm going to miss kate. even though i was gone for two months without her it's just not the same anymore. i can't drive down to monmouth and see everyone at once. but i'll make it a point to hang out with kate and others during the summer.
as i was driving down the parkway i listened to bands that all of my friends and i like. it just made me think of all of the memories that we had made. i'm so glad that i met all of the people that i met because each of them has given me a little something that i'll always remember. each a different memory that i'll never forget. i may be gone from monmouth, but i'll be visiting for semesters to come. :)
shan is coming home this weekend, again. i'm sure we'll find something fun to do. on the 20th she'll be home for good. and soon after that everyone will be home again and i'll feel much better about being in mahwah. it's so boring without anyone here. even though i won't be hanging out with them every night, it's nice to know that they are around. within the next two weeks i should be going back to treasure island; i have to go in tomorrow to talk to my manager. soon enough i'll be occupied and i won't have time to think about how my life disappoints me.
i'm going to make macaroni&cheese right now. later on i'm going to katie's to watch theOC. tomorrow my mom is coming home from the hospital. she's in so much pain. i feel horrible. poop.
i hate goodbyes. and i hate that i missed saying goodbye to some people, too. :/ |
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| 03:41pm 03/05/2004 |
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last night's tape watching made me think of everything else that i have experienced in the past 8 months at monmouth. it inspired me to list all of the things that i will always remember. i have decided to share them with you. and please, if you have any suggestions, tell me. i'll be glad to add them to the list.
( monmouth memories ) |
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| 01:36am 03/05/2004 |
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mood:  depressed music: frou frou.
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no, i'm not okay.
and no, nothing has changed.
i'd really, really, really like to have what i had at once.
i think you all know what i'm talking about.
BUT someone different, obviously.
it's been said 84739 times, i know.
loneliness is just fucking eating away at me.
i just watched a videotape of good times that we had at monmouth.
i really miss those times.
we were all so close.
and it all just went down the drain after awhile because of certain reasons.
one good thing that came out of monmouth was that i spent most of it with some really great people and made a lot of awesome memories that i'll never forget.
i hope to still keep in touch with everyone, i really do.
it's so sad to be leaving now.
wednesday will be the last day that i will ever see my room.
the room that so many memories were made in. :/
THIS IS LAME. |
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| late night adventuring. |
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| 06:14pm 02/05/2004 |
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mood:  relaxed music: le tigre.
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last night at around 10:30 our random adventure began.
kate, liz, beth, and me.
applebee's for dessert.
top down in the wrangler caused messy hair.
cigarettes for three ladies.
the faint, no doubt, eve6.
exploring parks.
cops scared us away.
mcdonald's to feed the hungry.
lame boys and girls stalking us.
711 to eat our french fries.
spotted same old man biking three times.
driving around in circles and screaming at each other.
foggy road near the beach and njtransit stop.
rock climbing.
beautiful houses.
short stops at red lights and crazy turns.
all of which i took pictures of.
very interesting night that i'm glad i partook in.
i'm going to miss these girls very dearly.
(put the cursor over the pictures for captions.)
( adventure into the night ) |
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| 04:28pm 30/04/2004 |
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mood: icky. music: frou frou.
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i haven't been as drunk as i was last night in awhile. got pretty sick and made myself throw up. don't remember much either. it's always fun to hear what i did last night and what went on and have no recollection of any of it. not fun. at all. but i had fun nonetheless.
nowwww i feel like and look like death.
shower time soon.
and possibly going to the diner tonight with kate, jow, and the boys.
forgot i was writing an entry...
kate has a new sundress.
i mean, skirt.
i need to vomit.
thank you very much.
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| 09:08pm 29/04/2004 |
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post a memory of me in the comments. it can be anything you want. if you have a picture, even better.
then post this in your journal and see what people remember of you.
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went to applebee's last night with kate, dave, and laura. the WORST service EVER. no tip was given, that's how bad it was. we must have waited an hour and a half total for everything. pissed me off.
thursday night is always drinking night. and this time i'm going to join in on it. dave, jared, and i are splitting a "bladder" of wine. i've never done this before, it should be quite interesting.
i'm so sad. i don't want to turn my room keys in. (still haven't done it, obviously)
i'm hoping to stay here until sometime early next week. that'd be real nice.
more updates will be done laterrrr.
good.
bye. |
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| 06:24pm 28/04/2004 |
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monmouth will see my face around 8:15pm on this lovely evening. and it will have to put up with me for as long as possible.
and tomorrow morning is my time to turn in my room keys. :/
hopefully i won't get shat on! |
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| 01:56pm 26/04/2004 |
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mood:  pissed off music: nothing.
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monmouth called to tell me that i have to turn in my keys.
this fucking sucks.
my visit is going to be earlier than i had expected.
and i have to take everything back with me even sooner.
i don't understand why i can't just do it at the same time as everyone else.
it's almost the end of the semester.
TWO FUCKING WEEKS LEFT.
monmouth university should die.
they always seem to fuck things up.
now i will be going down before the end of this week.
and who knows how long i'll be able to stay.
i wanted it to be a long visit.
but things just don't like going my way.
ever.
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| 12:28am 26/04/2004 |
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mood:  thoughtful music: an old mix.
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UCONN was insane. i've never seen so many college kids in one place at one time. supposedly there were around 12,000 kids. whaaat. hundreds of cops around, just standing in the crowds. 86 people were arrested. it all took place outside a complex on campus. in the roads and parking lots. i've never experienced such an event, but i'm glad that i was with good friends.
i don't really have much to say.
i feel that i've become very uninteresting.
there's really no need to write as much as i do anymore.
it's getting to be a bore.
but i'll still be writing when i have something to write about.
i can't wait until i have that feeling that is indescribable, all over again.
i can't wait until that someone fills me up with hope and assures me that everything will be okay. :/
i'm listening to an old mix that consists of...
the anniversary.
placebo.
the pixies.
jefferson airplane.
everclear.
radiohead.
fuel.
and others.
it brings back old memories.
sometimes it's good to reminisce.
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| 11:27pm 22/04/2004 |
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i hear a tick-tock, but there's no clock. |
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